Be careful what you whisper in Prayer
For God's ear is always there
In the dark of night or light of day
Sinking in deep depression one night
Of my life

I just didn't care

In a solem weeping whisper
I ask the Lord To please just let me die
I didn't want to be here
In the night he whispered back
Is that what you truly want?
Something calmly in me said "no"

That night so often lingers in my head
I remember the soft whispering voice
I was so divinely lucky
To be granted such a gracious choice.

There is no doubt in my mind
If I had said "yes"
I would not have been around for
The many Treasures for which
I have been Blessed.

Many times now troubles seem to abound
The thought of dying
Once again crosses my mind
I want to shout just let me die
But now I stand on solid ground
Being careful of what I whisper to
~ God In Prayer ~

Maggie 08/15/2000 copyright© 2000-2005 Revised May 14,2005


That was then and this now

Almost ten years have passed since that night. Oh, I would have missed so much if I had said "yes". I would have missed my daughter's Prom, buying that beautiful plum colored dress, and fixing her hair for Prom night. I would have missed her graduating from High School and going off to college.

I would have missed her Wedding and seeing the Beautiful Bride in her Satin wedding gown. Geez, that I had to press just knew I was gonna sorch it.

Most, importantly I would of missed the births of my 2 precious Granddaughters,
MacKenzie and Camden. The joy those days seem more exhilarating then when I had my own children.OH by the way one has my middle name

I have been through rougher roads since that time, but I have become stronger, and through , faith and prayers I made it through congestive heart failure and open heart surgery to repair a hole in my heart. I still suffer aliments that bring me down sometimes. But, it is all worth it, when the girls put their arms around me, hug my neck and kiss me then